Patriot,
I had to wear bandages on my chest every day for years.
The skin grafts from my surgery failed two years after the procedure. I was 17.
The doctors who performed that surgery have not once reached out to help me manage the complications.
They called it care.
I was 15 years old when a surgeon at a Kaiser facility removed my breasts.
I was a child.
I didn’t understand what breastfeeding was. I didn’t understand what it meant to lose that part of my future. I was 15. No one at that facility stopped to ask if I might change my mind.
I did change my mind.
But by then, it was too late...
Let me tell you how I got to that surgical table.
I was 12 years old when I wrote a letter and left it on the dining room table for my parents to find.
I told them I thought I was supposed to be their son.
I was confused. I was struggling. I had started puberty early and I was terrified of growing into a woman. I didn’t feel like I belonged with other girls. I had older brothers. I didn’t fit. I didn’t know why.
I just knew something hurt.
My parents were shocked. They wanted to wait. They wanted me to explore without intervention.
So they did what good parents do.
They brought me to a doctor.
That was the moment everything went wrong.
The gender specialist looked at my parents and asked them one question:
“Would you rather have a dead daughter or a living transgender son?”
I wasn’t suicidal. I was a happy child who struggled because she was different.
But my parents didn’t know that. They were told that if I wasn’t affirmed and put on a medical path immediately, I would be at risk of suicide.
The gender clinic lied.
My parents were forced to make a decision under duress. And because they loved me — because they were terrified of losing me — and they thought they could trust the medical “experts.”
At 13, I had my first testosterone injection.
I will likely have medical complications for the rest of my life... my fertility is unknown.
At 15, a surgeon at a Kaiser facility removed my breasts.
A few months later, I started to question everything.
A year after that, I knew the truth.
I was a girl. I had always been a girl. I was a girl who hated puberty and had no one to tell her that was okay.
At 16 — after the surgery — I became suicidal.
The very nightmare the doctors told my parents they were preventing?
They almost caused it themselves.