Content Warning: This email discusses suicide and sexual assault.
John–
Growing up a queer kid in Missouri, my identity made me a target for bullying and harassment. I struggled with my mental health so much that by my junior year in high school, I had attempted suicide multiple times.
And then, at 17, I reached my lowest point. I was held at gunpoint and sexually assaulted by a former partner of mine. I went to the local police department, but they refused to help. I was a terrified kid, desperate for someone to give me the help and support I needed. I attempted suicide again, but this time I had access to a firearm.
Fortunately, I survived. But too many queer kids in crisis aren't as lucky.
Suicide remains a leading cause of death for young people: Approximately 39% of LGBTQ+ youth have seriously considered attempting suicide in the past year. Learn more from the report we released in collaboration with the Trevor Project.
Most suicide attempts aren't lethal—unless a gun's involved. A gun leaves little to no room for a second chance.
I'm lucky that I got a second chance. I survived some of the worst moments of my life, so now I advocate for fellow gun violence survivors and educate others on resources that can help them through crises.
September is Suicide Prevention Awareness Month. Talking about our mental health and experiences with suicide breaks the stigma and saves lives. That's why I'm sharing my story.
I think a lot about what I'd say to a younger version of myself if given the chance. So, I'd like to end by sharing an excerpt from a letter I wrote to my four-year-old self:
"Growing up is going to be a challenge, but with the right people and the right support—you will be able to overcome anything that is thrown at you. You are beautiful and you are worth the life you are going to live."
With gratitude,
Zachary Mallory
he/they
Senior Fellow
Everytown Survivor Network
P.S. You can read more about my experience as a gun violence survivor on Moments That Survive.
